Insecurity

Beth Moore, in writing about Saul and David from the Bible:

"I'd like to suggest the possibility that he liked David and despised him at the same time. That's not an uncommon response toward people we admire but who also make us feel threatened and insecure. We're not jealous of people in whom we see nothing admirable. In fact, it is the fear that they have something we don't that makes us most insecure."

--From So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore